I cannot not help J

It was a strange meeting with J today. Having S around helped me be a bit more honest about what I think. It's heartbreaking what she is going through. And so messy. I can understand the insecurity and it's scary to even try to imagine myself in her shoes. 

I know I was curt with her. My impatience got the better of me. And I do have a problem with some of her behaviour. We met after more than a year. But I lacked the enthusiasm. I hope I manage to enjoy with her again. 

I did think I will ask her to sort her things out. But I can't abandon her. I cannot let her deal with this by herself. She really has no one. And she needs me. 

I just hope I can draw the line or be mindful of my comfort. It might also be time to take her on a trip. Fingers crossed.